$96 was FOC! school pay for it (from what i know). if we didnt use this $96, we have to pay the school back. cool aite? so, we just have to buy the things using our money first, then whenever we got the money from the school, the money just get back to our wallet.. simple aite? ok, it was planned that 2-2.30pm was supposed to be there. but since bestie-amala and me got the wrong way into the Pasir Ris Park, we have to walk all the way from Area 1 to Area 4. but its ok. we got there btw. we are the 6th and 7th person to reach there. before us was Ben, Hasif and Uncle Beng. they took cab in. and the taxi driver dropped them at carpark E. then, Xiangyun and Luanne got there by car. whose car? haha! Xiangyun's guy car. it was Benjamin Huang. so now, there are 2 BENs. ahaha! they got confused at times when we called 'Ben'. but after some times, they get used already. after bestie-amala and me, Aziah and Mum Rita arrived with bicycle! Aziah cycled it. i pitied them. but Aziah was clever. ahaha! followed by Doreen Ho. she got lost. Hasif had to pick her up from the round-a-bout road. then, our VIP arrived at 4.50pm. MS JOAN LEE. she was like 'i havent been walking that far for long time.' actually, our pit was quite far from the entrance. should i add this? far from toilet also! aiyoh! buey tahan man. but we still had fun there. Doreen, bestie-amala and me get off around 5.05pm, and we saw Eka. (with the trolley which contains the SATAY!). actually bestie-amala was late for the dance competition! but she's only supporting her ICG-indian cultural group. from Pasir Ris to Dover is like 48mins! almost an hour! but she got there on time. as for me, i was late for my revision! planning to do some revision before meet my mama. but then, she had to wait for 1/2 an hour to wait for me. sorry mama! i was doing some revision! luckily, it doesnt jam that night. if not, my mama and i have to wait in the bus like for hours! but no difference! i still get back home at 12+am. haix! due to some family meetings. when is my family going to stay alone-as a family only? 'the day will come soon!'. i hope so. (fingers crossing!)

(about the BBQ, i will update the photos soon!)
(after the freaking week8 which full of exams!)

BTW, THANKS 0814, FOR MAKING THE BBQ HAPPENING! MUAX!

i still dont understand why some people are not proud of their own name. i kept reminding people to type down your name at the the end of your comment in my entry. but why cant you? its ok to me if you dont want to type down your name, but just alert or msg me(if you have my number). in that case, i may identify your identity. but for now, im still looking for someone who had spam my blog! please kindly type down your name. its easy. thank you!


(to people who really wants to talk to the spammer, i suggest comment my entry first before she do. because (i think) she wont read your comment after she'd commented. thanks alot!) :)

thats the way SEZAIRI!
THE ONLY GUY IN TOP 3.
ALL THE BEST TO YOU!
MAY YOU BE OUR NEXT SINGAPORE IDOL!

with love,
natasha. <3

1. intimacy = closeness
2. passion = sexual attraction
3. commitment = maintain relationship

Empty Love = commitment
Fatuous Love = passion + commitment
Romantic Love = intimacy + passion
Companionate Love = intimacy + commitment
Consummate Love = intimacy + passion + commitment
so lovers, which love are yours?

i'd also learn another thing.
imagine you are married by now, and you had a child,
are you willing to die for your child?

and now, lets get back to reality.
if you love your guy/girl,
are you willing to die for him/her?

answer: IF YOU ARE NOT WILLING TO DIE FOR HIM/HER, JUST FORGET ABOUT SAYING THE WORD 'LOVE'.

dear ladies,
guess who i saw just now? it was lutfi! the guy that some of you crazy fall for! i was otw back home with bestie-amala, then suddenly i heard someone called me. i turned and tried my very best to recall that guy. when i look his eyes, then i recognised him. it was really lutfi. he asked me which year am i. so i replied, followed by him. he was in the course of sports and wellness in SBM. this is his first year. well, he has the same age as me, which means that his o's wasn't that good. that's why he's in the first year. well, so ladies, you've gotten the info that you wanted for so long? ohya. let me add this thingy about him. he's extra handsome +++++. seriously! even bestie-amala said that. haha!

(btw lutfi, jgn kembang ehk. ehehe. :p)

how i wish this livejournal has a tagbox with it. i tried so many times, using many ways to put those tagbox in my journal. but it seems like it doesn't captured by the settings. how sad. im trying to help someone named 'siti'. she's having difficulties in commenting my entry. so, i tried to put those tagbox. but im sorry 'siti', i cant help u. i'd tried my best, though. i know you need to comment on people's blog. but it seems like i've got no choice but to let you comment on my every entry in my blog.
btw peepz, i gtg. happy reading! :)

Diary,
On Thursday night, when I got back home, my bed was the first one I looked for. Seriously. I was damn tired. I slept with the tee and short that I wore to campus. I woke up around 11.25pm. I washed up and ate my freaking late dinner. I packed my stuff and off we go.

Early Friday morning around 2.50am, went to 711 to buy snacks to eat in the car. We reach Machap around 4am. Mama and the rest ate bee hoon. I just ordered Milo. Then, went Pangoh to do some business and off we go to KL. Reach Busu Ogy house around 7+ am. Once I stepped into her house, I went to the sofa and let myself rest there. Oh gosh. My back freaking in pain! Sat for so long hours. Plus my flu and slightly fever. When my abg starts to get sick, i gotten his cough too. Aiyoh. Plus the phalgm. Buey tahan, man. Slept for some while, feels like p.u, then i woke up. Bath to get out of KL and off we go to Seremban. My hari raya haji was like in the car. Went to Seremban, ate at Shalala Cafe. When get too bored, we went to KFC nearby. Wow! Delicious! Ahaha. Sat at Seremban for like about 3hours plus. Then, after magrib, we went to Ayer Keroh. Waited for another 2 cars around 2hours plus or so. Met them and off we go to Klebang to get the bungalow keys. And guess what, we got trapped in the jam for around 1hr plus? Gosh! Then, turned to the same place ‘cause too many shortcuts are closed. got the key around 12.45am on early Saturday morning. Ate there for freaking late dinner and off we go. Reach bungalow around 3am. Put stuffs and book place to sleep. Washed up and nighty-nighty.

Woke up around 11plus am on Sat morning. Washed up and off we go to mama’s kampong. Im not sure where is it located at. ‘cause i was asleep all the way in the car to the village. Meet my nephews and nieces. Ahaha. So cute! Somemore got twins! Haix. I wonder who are among us who gotten the twins in the future. So fortunate! :) ohya. Ate mee hailam there. And kacau-kacau the kids there. Around 5plus pm, we went out of there. And shop at Mahkota Parade at Malacca. Ok. i only bought a hair band for myself, which i need for tonight. Then, after dunnoe where to go, my family sat at KFC and ate fries! Fun! Then, meet the rest at carpark and off we go. Got the wrong way home again but manage to find the way home at last, after so many rounds. Ahaha! Reach bungalow around 12.30am on early Sunday morning. Rush to the toilet and bath. Slept with the aircon of 24degree. So cold! Might not be some of us, but to me, yes! ‘cause the aircon was directly above me! haha! Lucky i didn’t wet myself! Haha! :p

Mama woke me up around 8am on Sunday morning and went for washed up. Then, waited for the rest to pack up, and clean up! Only 2 family that are going back on Sunday. Another 2 family will be going home on Monday. So, got everything and off we go to eat out lunch and Pulau Gadong. Waited for Busu Ogy also, to have lunch together. Then, joke around before going off. Around 1.15pm, bye-bye started. 3 cars going off. Busu Ogy going to Nilai to send her first son, Faris. While another 2 cars will be going back to Setia Tropika. I reached home around 5.05pm. then, bought KFC for dinner. And pack stuffs for tomorrow. Not fun and lively holiday. But im happy to meet my cousins. Especially Faris, Haziq and Amira. Without you guys, my holiday will be very boring. :) stay contact people! Muax! :)

(i will upload the pictures that i took during the journey).soon!

1. i had adult nursing meeting today. and we really had fun. not really fun, but so called arguing over hyperthyroidism. all starts when we doesn't know how to explain what makes t3 and t4 increase in their levels. all of us have different views on it. as for me, my explanation was more based on biological science. so, i don't think it's relevent for adult nursing. ok. that's fine. but there's another thing that makes me, amala and cheryl laugh out loud. really buey tahan. haix. only 3 of us know. we were like msn to each other about it. so now, when you guys heard me saying hyperthyroidism, you should understand. haha. or maybe just pretend to understand.

2. i had my 2nd prac today! at 5.55pm. i left campus around 5.35pm. i thought i would reached there on time but i was late abit. ehehe. :p i reached around 5.53pm. i straight away look for my name listed in the TV screen. then, dashed to my assigned car. when i was almost reaching my car, i heard someone shouted my name! it was my cousin! aiyoh. very long time never meet him. but unlucky, i didn't get him as my instructor. ya lorz! popular ma! haha. ok. get back to story. my car almost left me. but lucky when the instructor saw me, he stopped the car. it was Bobby! so glad to get him again. well, he's also good. he knows my standard. that was what he said. so, after few rounds in the circuit, we went outside! i was like NO! im not confident enough to drive outside. but we went outside though. he drive and show me the route that was supposed to be drive by me later. then, he stopped the car after one round. so, we exchanged places, and off we go. first 2 rounds, i stalled the engine alot of time! i was panic! that was because of my new enemy, traffic light! haix. especially the turning light! aiyoh. i got horns from drivers behind my car. but after few rounds, i got it right. i drive more smoothly. but interestingly, Bobby changed the route suddenly! he asked me to drive straight to the main road! omg! im so scared if i stalled the engine in the middle of the main road! but suprisingly, i didn't! yeah! good improvement. that was what Bobby told me. so, went to stop behind a stationery car, and he signed my book. then, off we back to SSDC. so, i went happily out of the car and off i go.

3. i get to talk to my cousin! when i was otw back to meet my dad, my cousin called me to wait for him. so, i waited. then, we talked and talked about life. i was actually shocked to see him. he's kinda more cuter nowadays. haha! ish! he's a father of 1! his son also cute like him. see la whose cousin? ahaha. ohya. as we were talking, we saw Bobby. so, my cousin called him. Bobby asked whether he knows me ah? he replied that im his sister. lol! then, he asked whether Bobby got scold me or not, and stuff. but no worries bro, Bobby never scold me before. he's vey nice instructor. i like his natural brownish eye. haha! seriously. gals, you confirm fall in love with his eyes, at least. lol!

so, it was totally a nice experience, you know. to drive is actually not easy. especially with lots of cars and drivers who are inpatient. but nevertheless, i still have lots of fun! :)

hey you!
you wanna know why its eerie?
you think people are so stupid that you don't talk behind people?
please lah.
maybe because of that, they left their 'thing' behind to make you feel eerie of the house.
to me, it's not an issue because i don't cause trouble to them.
and for you, who doesn't know how to say SORRY when you are actually at fault!
and maybe that's why your life doesn't have any improvement.
you promise so many things but where's the prove?
you want this. you want that.
but you trouble us.
what the hell!
please face yourself in the mirror!
you are such a loser who doesn't know how to take initiative.
i believe that a person who are so greedy over things, will lose out one day in front of the public.
trust me, hey you! you will lose everything if you don't change.

once again, i saw him.
this time, wearing purple.
haha. saw him in the north canteen.
as usual, amala saw him first,
aiyoh.
when am i going to see him first?
it's always amala who win.
haix.
:p

(dearie syg, i just love his face. ok dearie? muax!)

HEY YOU!
(YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE)
IM GONNA TAKE REVENGE ON YOU! REMEMBER THIS! I WONT LET YOU GO! I WILL MAKE YOU SUFFER,YOU UNDERSTAND! I DONT CARE WHAT'S YOUR RELATIONS WITH ME! BEAR THIS IN YOUR MIND!

i know he wasnt ready to go home.
i can see it from his face.
i didnt cry.
i couldnt cry.
but suddenly, i became clueless.
is the world trying to be unfair to me?
SI season 1, i didnt expected malay could win.
so, i thought sylvester could win.
but, opposite happened.
SI season 2, i didnt follow the SI properly.
i just watch when the rest of my mates talked about it.
but when the top 2, i knew that Hady Mirza could win.
when he started to win SI, from there, i started to like him.
adore him. and many more.
but for SI season 3, when i follow that particular idol, he couldnt make it.
how sad.
actually Faizal Isa can sing!
but the thing is he started to choose song that are slow and very comfortable for him.
but it's ok Faizal.
study comes first.
now, i really depend on Sezairi to not to let malay down.
please Sezairi.
i rely on you, babe.

Dear Faizal Isa, before you go, one of the judges said this. (and i hope you bring this wherever you go-so called motivation.)

"you really look like a star!"

bye dear. kakak gtg. byebye!

"PM's Papa"

that was the label that i've got during my tutorial. i was fun. actually, the game is trying to help us in explaining of someone's label without that person knowing. at first, i thought im a bussinessman or something. i got positive feedbacks. kinda happy to me. but i still cant guess my label, till someone says that im proud of your son. ouh. i got it! ehehe. btw it's very fun to get to train ourselves to try to give explanation to people without even saying the word. we really had fun during that tutorial. want to know the rest?

'stuntman'
'sportsman'
'sex worker'
'cripple'
'nurse'
'pole dancer'
'medium'
'security guard'
'homosexual'
'sex offender'
'drug addict'
'alcoholic'
'air stewardess'
'top model'
'terminal pt'
'bouncer'
'hiv positive'
'sailor'
'pregnant teen'
'actor'

saw the words? try to play the game on your friends. and see who can guess correctly! :p

guess what peepz?

the top 5 Singapore Idol finalists was here in my campus!
so crazy lorz!
but the thingy was i couldn't watch the whole show lorz!
i was freaking crazy of it.
so, i thought of putting it aside, since i had to go for my pharmacology lecture.
but then, there was a few A4 paper pasted in the ladies.
"today @ atrium @ 1pm. (psstt..singapore idol will be there..)"
some sort like that ah.
i was like argh!
nevermind! my studies are more important than those things.
but when my lecture ended earlier, bestie-amala, hazimah and me rushed to the atrium there.
but bestie-amala didn't watch it.
she had to buy something.
so, hazimah and me watched them for 2nd floor, near the shopping arcade.
the first person i saw was someone tall wearing purple. FAIZAL!
then, slyvia started to sing.
then, FAIZAL! he sang 'more than words'.
then, charles.
followed by that tabitha.
lastly, SEZAIRI! oh gosh! he's voice are so charming!
i almost fall down!
but lucky, im still alive now.
well. i just hope FAIZAL and SEZAIRI can make it to the finals.
if both of them can't, maybe at least one of them.
please.
don't let down the malays!
thank you so much!
btw thanks for coming.

chilling outz,
natasha.

i learned something which is very interesting. maybe not interesting to some but to me, it's very useful to make judgement in life. but when i think back, im still not sure to believe it or not.

"In general, women have better life expectancy & lower mortality rates than men. So, there's a saying 'Women get sick & men die'. Why? Men more likely to engage in risky activities. Males more likely to die a violent death while young compared to females. In another significant finding, women tend to get sick more frequently but men are more likely to contract a life-threatening or chronic disease."

ok, let me get this clear. actually, all these are based on statistics. so, its true. maybe due to lifestyle, since we are in the modern world right now. but isn't it weird till now?

i really feel like running away from you.
i just feel like doing it.
i dont feel that im part of you.
you seem not to be bother about me.
you are more to your stuffs.
i understand that you are busy now and then.
but how about us?
you seems not to bother.
you thought im old enough to think of the way out.
actually, you were the one who create the problem.
not me.
im just the person who involved in it.
this is totally unfair.
you are totally unfair towards me.
please.
if i really go before you, i know you would be more happier.
maybe sad abit.
because i have been part of your life.
maybe abit ah.
not even 1/2.
maybe around 10%.
or maybe 1%.
so sad.
how can you do this to me?
you are really unfair.
i cant seemly carry on my life like this everyday.
it's killng me!
you are killing me softly isit?
i really cant take it.
please.
do something before things goes worst.
i still need you in my life.